Thursday, October 31, 2013

Long Time, No See.

It's been forever, hasn't it?
 
The last time I actually "vlogged" & "blogged" was August 8th, 2012. Today is November 1st, 2013.
 
So- where have I been for almost 14 months?
 
Well, as nature had ran its course, and our lives continue on, my life did too. I graduated with my Bachelor's degree in Marketing, I survived being a 21 year old, and along with these great life events came something negative...
 
My weight gain.
 
You see, I will never say that "The Bouari Clinic did not work for me", for I know it was never them to blame my weight gain. I blame myself. I blame the fact that right when I turned 21 years old, I began to go out more often, I drank more often, I was around alcohol more often, and guess what?...You got it! I gained weight. I didn't go on my maintenance plan because I was so happy that I was 21 and that I lost the weight that I previously did before... and next thing you know.. 14 months later... I'm back to square one.
 
As you can see, I tried to go on Bouari again last year in August...but for some reason, I wasn't motivated enough to do it.
 
Next thing you know, I'm 5'0'' and I had reached my all time high of 209 lbs.
 
THERE! I said it. 209 lbs. It's absolutely disgusting.
 
It finally hit me about 2 months ago that I needed to make a change because I was turning into what I call, a "negative Nads" ( Nads is my nickname ). I have never been a jealous person at all, up until this point in time of my life. I was upset about what certain people had, what they looked like, what they wore....the most smallest things bothered me. But what really upset me, was when I saw an individual from my past in a near distance, and I turned away, hoping she wouldn't see me, because I was embarrassed of my appearance. THAT, was not the Nadia I knew. I never was embarrassed of myself. Never, ever.
 
So 2 months ago, I decided I needed to start a clean eating regimen .  I got back in my routine of eating and choosing healthy options and my weight loss started. After those 2 months, I knew I wanted to go back on Bouari, which is the new SOZA Clinic. I felt as if I had enough confidence and self motivation that I could do this again without giving up. So here I am.
 
Currently, I weigh 191.4 lbs. My overall goal is to be 125 lbs...not because I want to be super-skinny, but just so I'm at a true and healthy weight for my height, in hopes that I will never face my wake-up call again.
 
I'm back...and I know you are all yearning for more.